oh dear

i guess I've been a little busy

which in my book its a good thing

the year is wrapping up on a good note

i haven't been more pleased with life than right now

everything is good

so 2009 

fresh start

i lost a lot

and what i lost

is really a gain to what is ahead

but i hope to gain a new me

a new side

I'm ready to leave behind what i believed would make me happy

and honestly i don't think it ever will

i learned a lot

i loved

and will keep loving

confession

i have a desire for experience

curious about many things

black

signature color

magnifique!

structure and shape

i heart Hannah Marshall

in my box i get lost

but who cares

city view

dolores park

it grows wild

recurring grace

with a simple touch 

what rhymes with crocodile?

and 

why am i wearing an eyepatch?

he separates his good mushrooms from the bad

and smiles 

as he walks up the hill

el sol esta caliente

a philosopher 

so shy

the perfect eye contact

esperemos la primavera

i heart christian joy

Spring 2009

Christian Joy

atrapando los pensamientos

Paul Insect

mariposa

en la noche 

en la oscuridad de la noche 

me pregunta

te vas?

y donde vas?

distraida en los colores de la noche

me da su vida

cuando se acuesta entre mis brazos

al amanecer 

en mi oido murmura

eres una mariposa

vivo como quiero 

dudes approach her

want to be her lover

and she obliges

i feel relief 

sleeping in another bed

easy-ness

not next to you

i wake and want to feel you

a tender kiss on my head

such hope

i am hopeful

quiet breathing

i can hear my thoughts

feelings

mind tricks taking over

the things we do

Madame Reds and Vida

en la mañana hace frio

i was really looking forward to the cold

but now i  realize its going to be feeling much colder than before

warm body next to me

now i have to wear clothes

i dont understand how i become so used to laying next to someone

i had 5 blankets before

and a room heater

lets begin looking thru storage closets

that very night in max's room the forest grew

Spike Jonze is working on Maurice Sendak's classic book Where The Wild Things Are.

magical and beautiful 

'and the wild tings roared their terrible roars and gnashed their terrible teeth and rolled their terrible eyes and showed their terrible claws'.

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via Von Maneuski

respira

i dont trust those words
i dont trust these feelings
im subjective to lies
naive
this bayview
im alone
am im content
breeze
breathe
in
sense
el silencio es cruel

6:00 am

this weekend i was outside a club
and this guy was telling me he wanted to party until 6 in the mornin'.
then i think
i enjoying waking up early
i enjoy having coffee or tea.
waking up.
only days like these is where i feel i accomplish more
morning
jog
im trying to make it a habit.
but really there is something about waking up early.
maybe because the sun is about to rise
a new day
a new beginning
its quiet.

but there is nothing wrong with partying until 6 in the morning.

"Oprah!?" .... "Opa!!"

the spontaneity of friendship
is what i enjoy
a small reminder of a friends inspiration
inspired by other friends
where its a cycle of wonderful people around me
what joy i find in the new
enjoying the passing of time
at night
i really just want to be in love with life
and knowing that doing is just what i need
i realize that maybe everything is going to be alright
and i turned and walked into the world


Talking Heads - This Must Be The Place

ay algo amor que simple a vista no se ve

i remember i used to drive

open road made for me

then i took a detour to a rest stop

los angeles was so close

this is not about LA

its about how happy nature used to be

no one sleeps.

got a bad desire

then he opens the door

my curiosity urges me 

walk in

white down comforter

i shy away from

to a wooden chair

true nature

what is my true nature

reckless 

rash decisions

blue carpet

he and i

true nature

idealism

i think the ocean is calling 

wash off my soiled body

lets take a journey

into the weird
a journey into my visual amusement

intrigued

Penguin Horror Series

Duncan Dhu - En Algun Lugar

i held the door open

and you stepped on my shoe
he has nothing to do with it
"you little mean old thing!"




School of Seven Bells - Conjur

despierta

what i want to be
what im going to be

sometimes my body
gets so quiet i can hear my soul,
frantically trying to get out.

i feel....

so fragile
i cant even touch you
afraid
timid love
its not me its you
its not you its me
he comes home with me

one day ill be leaving this town

i would like to live in the country
in a country cottage
with a garden where i will smell the flowers in the morning



Este sitio es tan frío
No hables por mí
No quiero hablar
Es perder mi tiempo
No me hagas reír
No me hagas llorar
No me preguntes mi nombre
No me mires a los ojos
Amigo mío
Camera Obscura - Amigo Mio

follow intuition

I believe there is no reason
for me to change.
Will i eventually end up alone
if i decide not to make changes.
I'm often asked if I regret anything
I've ever written or disclosed or done.
I don't.
People wonder what could possibly be the benefit of about being so completely upfront about this kind of shit.
about how i want grow by experience,
and where i find inspiration in people around me.
I find that laying the bad stuff all out there means that people can't have expectations of me being
anything except exactly who I am.
Sure, it leaves me open to ridicule,
if i open up to everyone
but I think when people do such things,
it actually says so much more about them than it does about me.
im not afraid to have my opinions
and i refuse to let a man
make me believe
i live i a life of no reason
no meaning


Soko - No Love
Joan as Police Woman - Eternal Flame

bloop!

the love that you make is a little insincere
it's a postcard that reads "wish you were here"
and it's never enough to give me any hope

body soaks up love like a paper towel

and still is dry

i wonder if that moment
is worth the wait
am i really going to do this
am i really going to figure it out
am i really going to wait
am i really going to change
for you
am i really that strong
am i really that weak
i wonder what you really think of me
why do we stop
i saw you
stop and think
when you wrote our name on the wall
i knew you had to fight the devil
sharing different heartbeats
in one night




In my age of reason
Complicated by feeling
I dream of impossible things
I dream of impractical things

In my age of anxiety
Complicated by destiny
I waste away the day

In my age of anger
Complicated by female matters
I scream mutiny

In my age of desperation
Complicated by ambition
I shoot myself in the foot

In my age of envy
Complicated by money
I go for broke

In my age of doubt
Complicated by our falling out
I pray to an unexistent God

Mia Doi Todd - Age of Reason

our brains create a complex loop

"do you have pre-thoughts that are pure and direct then once proccessed through the mind of ...... gathers more complexaties and rare puzzle pieces with the other end that wont match cuz you dont even know where that piece goes?"

we talk without saying many words
under the influence being near
words flow
im not in love but its ok to stay with you

music is fundamental
original source of who i am
so ill try and add some music here
maybe ill talk about it maybe i wont
just listen


Soko - so sweet yet so not
a womans scorn sounds so lovely


Vecar - Listen to "Don't Let Go"
theres a reason for everything..
let me think about that
i believed there was reasons for everything
there had to be a reason for all the actions, every action has a re-action
i need to head back to physics
im very impressed by this band, songs are incredibly written
words impress my ears and thoughts
where i think and fall in love
especially "Intricate Machine"
"and in your eyes my heart is fire
but in your dreams my heart is like and ocean
and you drown....."


"were all in love, but the fire went out"..."we were so young but love so old...the music starts playing dance till 3 you were not alone, but not with me"

Vecar
Soko - Ill Kill Her

Woman that believes:
"fashion is about intellectual concepts that make people think."




Hannah Marshall


















makes me smitten
im not generally a dark person
but black is probably my favorite color to wear
shapes and structures
or maybe its just muy punkera
innovative aesthetic

The Kills - Getting Down

critical thinking

openness: common sense and innovated ideas.
evaluation: engineering.
purposeful thinking: fresh new ideas for a change, with a benefit.





Gareth Pugh



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