loud

six months and a day

signed and delivered

things have never felt so awkward

until you know there is really nothing tying two people together

only what is remembered

and only we know it doesn't happen as much

i believe for the first time i feel like im losing someone

important

even if we continue to keep the relationship of friendship

there is no other road but the one taking us farther away from each other

opposite direction

the people in your life are there as long as they need to be

thats all that happened

and

was going to happen

Otra Ocasión

Otra Ocasión

It's that time of year again and I'm putting together a playlist for the end of the year. I send them out with holiday cards. I started this in 2007, so here if you missed it go ahead and download the first one, but this one doesn't come with the hand made cover and all, so don't sleep get them every end of year.

handshake

we look at each other
with the look of
how did we get here?!

my heart will know the way

maybe its the rain..

In January 2006 I moved to San Jose. Mia Doi Todd's Manzanita album was on repeat that winter. It rained for a month straight, and I had just experienced love and had left it all. Love that was real and new. I again took this out today. Winter why do you make me feel this way?

It got warmer again that year and a new love had emerged that is when La Ninja: Love and Other Dreams of Manzanita was on repeat. I love going thru older favorite music and falling in love with it again.

guajololandia

we met by a trick of faith

Alum Rock Park

it might be beginning to feel like fall and closer to winter

abrazame

moments

im in love,

with living.

there was a life i had forgotten about

it was only because i was living for another

awakened again

to the adventures ahead

and its only the beginning

end is coming close

Turbo Sonidero Futuristico x System D-128

A while back a friend and I would past time was watching videos and listening to music.

OK, nothing has changed with me.

But one night we watched Diplo's Florida DVD.

LOL I still crack up about the whales and tightening the screw. anyways.

Later I found out it was made by a guy by the name of System D-128 also known as Duey Due who works close with Mad Decent, hence connection to Diplo.

I instantly knew why i liked it, cut and paste.

Just my style and taste.

So a span of a few years I hear his name again.

He produced a video for Turbo Sonidero Futuristico - "Donador de Organo" from San Jose.

Now two of my favorite things are brought together again trippy video and good music.

Donador de Organo - Turbo Sonidero Futuristico from System D-128 on Vimeo.

Now I can catch both in action in Downtown San Jose this Sunday and I will not miss out.

Turbo Sonidero Futuristico with other project TurboMex and System D-128 doing visuals.

its you, only you

all black everything

dark, low red lights, loud, smoke filled room

SPANKTACULAR

happy girl

she's right where she wants to be

California is a place...

El Rey from California is a place. on Vimeo.

His name is Saúl Ezqueda and he is a Mariachi.

California Is A Place

a wonderful project.

visually beautiful.

btw

i realized..

this has turned into a video blog.

it will change soon again.

been writing in my journal instead.

ideas stuck there for a minute.

but i'll probably keep posting videos.

LOL

life is good.

but i do...

miss mi familia.

wake up and wish i was not in SJ.

have a gut feeling i should buy a plane ticket to NYC for January.

have a business plan/idea for my dream job.

met a romantic older man, and i probably ruin every conversation with my naive self, but he says i make him laugh.

enjoy being single.

photograph more.

girl crush

RIP Ari Up

slow

invest in life

wow

i don't know how i happened to watch this, but i was stuck and thought wow.
and made me miss los angeles and certain people.

blonde

time to let go

there are moments of choices

break the wall

i want

a soul as such in mi vida.

MADEME F/W 2010

MADEME F/W 2010 from Reid van Renesse on Vimeo.

love para all these cool chicas

word

hot weather

after the gym the raspado man was right in front of my apartment,
as if he was waiting for me and knew what i wanted.

is this love..

...or friendship?

"but then there is him....

humilde corazon

hugs

plays the music

sings the songs

makes me burn the candels

listening closely

creative

smile that matches mine

deceive

not meant to be

im not going to stay

im not goint to live a life where i cant be free

got me..."

....

"there is beauty in hope

and you know what the weird thing about this is

its the fact

that i cant open up like this to nobody

you make me laugh and you dont even try.

im in love with that.

and with everything you do."

....

"you think i wouldnt be suprise

that you acted that way

but everytime i see you

i fall in love all over again

i understand

we can never be,

more than a moment.

what summers are dreamed of

memories fading."

....

"i know her name

she might be quite something, to hold you."

....

"i never told you the things i thought as i held you,

but oh well.

ill keep it to myself

for there be many others."

....

"you come back in my dreams

here inside me,

wait until i awake."

....

"an hour

turns into 3

i missed where i was suppose to go

im not jealous of your girlfriend

im intimadated,

of all of them.

im trying to live this honest life

i want to let you know exactly what im thinking

i dont want to keep anything inside

ive made that mistake many times

ill always be the friend

and im in love with that.

im in love with the impossible

but thats why i leave

and follow dreams.

ill leave you behind

because you dont stop me."

....

"i gave up on the pleasure of your kiss so i wont feel the pain

we waited until the dawn came

laying in the middle of the park

warm blanket

warm arms

im bad for him

im no good

yet he stood by my side

im his until poets run out of rhymes

yet

actions speak louder than words

and there is no action

only words

i inspire

i love

he loves

he doesnt say much

so i stand there looking

waiting for him to say something

under the influence i grasp

love

and push

and pull

for him

to understand

late night phone calls

everyday

phone rings

hes too good to me

so good

i fall back

to make sure

its true

ive been here before

im true

im feeling older

i inspire him

yet

he tames the demons inside"

....

"i really dont want to fall in love

hurting is infinite...

and losing people in my life

is far worst.

i cant see my life without us"

these are snippets of journals

span of years of friendship

and after all this he is still the most awesome friend a girl can have

in and out of life

but can't see life without

at the moment.

momentos

...

When I laughed, I knew he wanted me again.

A minute later he asked, "Do you love me?"

I laughed some more, "I don't think so."

He looked sad.

After fixing breakfast, we laughed.

and thought maybe I will one day, if we keep laughing.

Best Coast - When I'm With You

an island

malibu

busy

but not really
busy
doing nothing
and
everything
doing all the things i don't get to during the rest of the year
i love summer.

ps.
can't wait for fall.
new routine.
always good.
back to school.

awesome

2009 Flaming Lips & Stardeath and White Dwarfs - Borderline from George Salisbury on Vimeo.

open road

i want to be on the road

in serious need of open road

road trip

The Black Keys - To Afraid To Love You
The Black Keys - Never Gonna Give You Up

zine #5

slow

i have to take things slow

im not very good at that

living by the moment caught up to me

slow down

not sure how to do that.

all i've known is what i feel

mind wanders

i wonder what's next

exploration

live in the moment

keep moving with the ticking clock.

everything is different

every hour

every minute

Summer Night Memories

its all about the sunsets and late nights when it comes to the summertime.

especially growing up in bakersfield

summer time is here, definitely my favorite time of the year

so here is Part I

a summer memories digital mixtape.

familia y friends,

love y roadtrips,

LA, Bakersfield, SF, Oakland, SJ.

Summer Night Memories Part I

Back In the Day - Ahmad

La Familia - Frost

On a Sunday Afternoon - Lighter Shade of Brown

Don't Let No One Get You Down - War

San Francisco Knights - People Under the Stairs

Oogum Boogum - Brenton Wood

Got It - Goapele

Passin' Me By - The Pharcyde

Let's Ride - Q Tip

I Get Around - Tupac

So International - B Legit & Too $hort

Getto Jam - Domino

Don't Give Me No Bammer Weed - RBL Posse

Laugh/Love/F**K - The Coup

It was a Good Day - Ice Cube

Be Thanksful For What You Got - William De Vaughn

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its officially summer

longer days

warm nights

bbqs

pool

familia

William DeVaughn - Be Thankful For What You Got

"you had such persistence,

you wore down my resistance."

we could be forever

the too good to be true would come to an end

but everytime im around you the sky is always blue

Jean Grae & Blue Sky Black Death - Away With Me

its not officially summer ..

but it feels like its already here.

but really isn't the unofficial beginning memorial day and end labor day.

ill go off of that.

so yes summer is here for me

park

sunshine

beer

spanish food

sangria

with melanie

Y CHICANO BATMAN

SUPERHEROES

Each photograph includes the location in Mexico where they are from and aproximately how much money they send back home. I appreciate these photographs because I know many people friends, family, and neighbors that do the same thing. I always respected them for what they do and only inspire me to appreciate the life that I have. Including my parents, I appreciate everything they've done not only for themselves but for there families and children. I think this project is great. Its good to see photography have a political stand and show that the majority of immigrants are only looking to better there life, like everyone else. Human nature to find happiness no??!

SUPERHEROES by Dulce Pinzon

ups & downs

smiles & frowns

CatATTACK

CatATTACK

Gudrun Gut - Move Me
Joy Division - Love Will Tear Us Apart
Black Kids - Hurricane Jane
Jeremy Jay - Airwalker
Blur - Ambulance
Beach House - Used To Be
High Places - From Stardust to Sentience
Caribou - Leave House
Zola Jesus - Night
13 & God - Perfect Speed
The Black Keys - Psychotic Girl
The Entrance Band - Grim Reaper Blues

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progress

the best thing you've ever done

is tell me you don't love me anymore.

end of the night, i will hold your hand

j'aime SF

i will live there soon.
i have a feeling.
life will have unexpected turns, but we have to make the most all we have.

SCRAPERTOWN

"going in green in the hood...
supporting positive.."

Scrapertown from California is a place. on Vimeo.

always thinking about spreading the positive energy
we all want to change the world
and we all
do it our own way

love triangle

this happens at any age.

at night

there is a sudden affair between strangers

weekend

again

where everything was unexpected

warm feeling inside

for warmer days

"Holy Moly
You're so funny
You crack me up"

Devendra Banhart ~ Baby from Ron Winter on Vimeo.

"Everything that happened
You know it don't mean a thing to us
'Cause so much is going to happen"

SF

awesome

can we pretend..

there is no yesterday.



paint a portrait of tomorrow, with no colors of today.

Veruca's World

"I want it Now!!!"

She's Not There

She's Not There.

Rolling Stones - Ruby Tuesday
Camera Obscura - The False Contender
The Who - My Generation
Nico - These Days
The Zombies - She's Not There
Tokyo Police Club - Be Good
13th Floor Elevators - You're Gonna Miss Me
Camera Obscura - Lloyd I'm Ready To Be Heartbroken
BLK JKS - Lakeside
Jennifer Lara - Close to You
Ohio Players - Ecstasy
Sharon Forrester - Silly Wasn't I
Jennifer Lara- Our Love
Shuggie Otis - Inspiration Information

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i woke up

and realized its only starting.
open up your eyes.

M.I.A, Born Free from ROMAIN-GAVRAS on Vimeo.

Sometimes it might not be easy to watch, but a revolution rarely is.

..because of the way you look at it, think about arizona. this could be happening now.

this is happening now somewhere.

only know ears not hands

She said, "Goddamn, I'm tired of being polite, go save somebody else."

"tasted better with alcohol you know how that one goes."

morning

"I'll hang my boots to rest, when im impressed."

Barry McGee

Barry McGee Feature from TheCreativeLives on Vimeo.

i knew it was you

do we just let it be

as is

what if?

reality and dreams

antes que nadie

Chicosonido - Antes que nadie from chico sonido on Vimeo.

remember this..

"he became the sun, i became the moon"

set for nice weather...

as soon as it stop raining..

but i've been looking for a bike, since my last one got stolen.

and look what i found....

love at first sight

and

of course an offer to good to be true.

and yes a velvet seat.

just need new tires but im looking forward to warm days and to go for rides

idea numero uno

zines

periodicals

books

i left my heart in San Francisco

SF Academy of Sciences