Pursuit of Happiness

"looking ahead, no turning back"

ill be good

once i get there

just close your eyes and meet me there

Former Ghost, SF - Bottom of the Hill

Former Ghosts - Us and Now
Former Ghosts - Hold On

Former Ghost. Fleurs, 2009

easy sunday

we will never stop the way we feel

unrelated

we will stop caring at some point

El Perro Del Mar - Let Me In

El Perro Del Mar - Change of Heart

EL Perro Del Mar. Love Is Not Pop, 2009

butter pecan

Raekwon. Ice Cream, 1995

different circumtances

i walk along the same street

different days

at night

love

black and white

black and white

black and white

lovers in love running away

Hannah Marshall makes my heart flutter.
I love black.
It's not my favorite color but i wear black all the time.
I love her work.
All black.
It makes sense to me.

Structure Design Shape

Hannah Marshall

what about him

i have to agree with everything this girl has to say....

Tonight I am thinking about love. More specifically, love lost. Not even lost, really. Love not realized. Or at least not realized until it was too late.

I have a male friend, Kyle. Kyle emotionally exploded on me tonight. Told me that he’s sick of finishing last, he’s too nice a guy for that. And he was so infuriated that after all these years I hadn’t given him a chance.

This is what happens when you give the guy who doesn’t drink that often a few Buds and a shot of Fernet.

He spoke to me about how he was always there for me, always providing a shoulder to cry on or a bar tab to pick up. Anything I needed, because he was being a caring and good friend. Kyle talked about how he respected everything about me, especially my imperfections. He said my imperfections were what made me perfect for him.

“I even know you’re an alcoholic,” he said. “And I don’t care, you’re still perfect.”

You want to know why nice guys finish last? It’s because they aren’t willing to take a chance, they’re too tied to their rules. They see their girl at her most vulnerable moment, and instead of doing what they perceive as a dick move, they put their arms around her and they hold her. They listen to her weep and they don’t take control of the situation. She’s too precious to cut off. Let her weep.

Let me tell you this: nothing makes a broken woman feel more beautiful than to have a man swoop in and push her up against a wall to tell her how much better she is than that. To kiss her, I mean really kiss her, regardless of what she might think about that. You know why nice guys finish last? It’s because when a guy named Bayne leaves you for no good reason and you feel like you’ve been reduced to nothing, my nice guy won’t come over and say the things I really need to hear to understand that he loves me, I mean really loves me. Us ladies, we know we’re beautiful, we know we’re intelligent, we know we’re worth it and we’ll find “him” someday. What we really need to hear and more importantly feel (at that moment — from you, the nice guy)) is that we’re sexy, that our inner organs that separate us from you guys are actually worth something. That we’re so beautiful that you can’t and don’t care whether or not that kiss you’ve so desperately wanted to plant on us is going to ruin our friendship. We want you, the nice guy, to rebel against your rules and just do what feels right. Take control of the situation and tell us that this is fucking it, you are in love with me. You are so in love with me that you are so unbelievably ready to ruin our friendship for a chance at love. That you are willing to pick up that bat and attempt to hit the ball out of the fucking stadium. Because either you strike out or you hit a home run. No one wants to sit in the dugout. But you don’t. You sit in the dugout and you tell us that we’re pretty, and not fat. That we’re worth it. And that Bayne is just stupid and doesn’t know what he’s missing. You’re too nice. You’re too good of a friend. Be a man. Make the call. Try your best to force us to love you. Because in the end, you’re right. Nice guys do finish last. So how about you buck up and become something else. Because otherwise you’re going to lose us, you’re going to lose me.

Nice guys finish last because they’re pussies.


via Tales from the Tenderloin

hermano

maybe some women are not meant to be tamed...

maybe they need to run free until they find someone just as wild to run with.

Los Sleepers - Hermanita

ay amor!!!

segunda oportunidad
no existe
life appears to take unexpected turns


Mayer Hawthorne - Maybe So, Maybe No

looking for the real

fantasy love is better than reality love.
never doing it is very exciting.
the most exciting attractions are between opposites that never meet.

summer blues

"I shambled after as I've been doing all my life..

after people that interest me.

because the only people for me are the mad ones..

the ones who are mad to live.."

- Jack Kerouac

and he wants me to change.

i might just be becoming someone else instead

Miles Benjamin Anthony Anderson - Buriedfed

crisis

Albert Einstein

"Let's not pretend that things will change if we keep doing the same things. A crisis can be a real blessing to any person, to any nation. For all crises bring progress.

Creativity is born from anguish, just like the day is born form the dark night. It's in crisis that inventiveness is born, as well as discoveries made and big strategies. He who overcomes crisis, overcomes himself, without getting overcome. He who blames his failure to a crisis neglects his own talent and is more interested in problems than in solutions.

Incompetence is the true crisis.

The greatest inconvenience of people and nations is the laziness with which they attempt to find the solutions to their problems. There's no challenge without a crisis. Without challenges, life becomes a routine, a slow agony. There’s no merit without crisis. It's in the crisis where we can show the very best in us. Without a crisis, any wind becomes a tender touch.

To speak about a crisis is to promote it. Not to speak about it is to exalt conformism.

Let us work hard instead.Let us stop, once and for all, the menacing crisis that represents the tragedy of not being willing to overcome it."

new direction

im headed in a new direction

not a bad direction

just a different road

"Two roads diverged in a wood, and I..
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference."

- Robert Frost

nothing ever promised tomorrow today

"they say people in your life are seasons,

and anything that happens is for a reason."

- Kanye West

good week

science academy in SF

so great.

rainforest

aquarium

natural museum

but we did miss out on the planetarium 

save it for next time

friday night

night out with vicky

ah we always have good times

vicky late nite tacos

and salsa

sangria 

aquarium and roberto

pienso que todo pasara

las cosas son asi
el mundo tiene algo para ti
lastima que yo no fui

Infinite Love - Little Dragon

amores pasados

y todo cambio

fuera deste mundo..

I'm A Lady - Santigold feat. Amanda Blank
Don't Cry - J Dilla

pretty girl thursday

no i dont know
not really
but
i dont know why i think this girl
is visually impacting to me
so
girl crush
victoria brito

changed it up..

changed

inspiration wall

in the other room

i like that older couple

too cool

Foutaises

Things I like, things I hate.

short film by Jean-Pierre Jeunet

i should make my own version.

all i want to do is lay down with a blanket

watch 

Le fabuleux destin d'Amélie Poulain

definitely my favorite film.

Je veux regarder des films français

but

a few days ago i watched 

Boulevard Nights.

1979

i want to watch other chicano themed films.

i want to watch french films.

home

it was nice being in bakersfield for a few days

time with the girls - aww i love these girls.

oOo i picked up some art too!

this after the drinking and i still dont know why kathy is giving the mean face hahahaha!!

this was after we were in the pool. i dont know what im doing. 

melanie. 

my cousin and jacquie.  ooO my nephew

brother graduated. valedictorian. wow i think i tell everyone that.

im proud. 

aww most of the time i was with my nephew.

t-ball. showing me his dance moves. and watching cartoons. 

and saving a toy bunny in my mom's crazy garden.

ask me and ill share that story.

haha!

im home now.

and it feels good.

but it might be the fact the weather is a lot nicer.

my windows are open.

and there is a nice cool breeze.

oh yeah and my bed.

i need to organize my brain

?
para oms
(pick one up with his mix, coming soon)

follow your genius
para felicia

love signs
para vicky

yes
yes i make these little things

i feel silly

not sure if the right silly

silly 

as

in 

silly girl

he leaves now

i stay behind

nada makes sense

Sharon Forrester - Silly Wasn't I

even my cookie knows

words to live by

remember....
1.whomever comes they the right people
2. whatever happens is the only thing that could have.
3. whenever it starts is the right time
4. when it's over it's over

purple diary
hmmm not so sure

soon

i need a day like that

again

soon

sharing a bottle of wine 

with somebody

so...

some of these post are from my old journals.

no dates

included.

wow!

who knew a beer and spa time could relax me so.

too many truths

we hold so many truths.

what are we to believe

really.

are feelings just a chemical unbalance

how can i trust that.

what makes us move on.

im not angry anymore.

but can i really be in love  with someone 

and fall in love at the same time.

communication is important.

we always wonder if they still think about us

and my little 

signs

only remind me that 

it doesnt happen as often

why do we reach to our past.

i learn to leave it.

and then i turn back 

just because it feels safe to know

i did have feelings

im afraid when he touches me

so i kiss him on his shoulder.

hand.

arm.

push him away.

because i dont trust feelings.

i dont trust this chemistry.

science 

laws are broken

mystery spot.

he called

exactly a year has passed

i didnt answer

because there is nothing else

why would you try again

if you know there was absolutely nothing there

it was a mistake.

a mistake where i should have learned

that not everyone deserves someone 

he payed what he owed me

and that was it

but just to let him

know

since you 

i fell in love

we were just a thing

you know

im thinking maybe i was the bad person

you never really did anything bad

except not be the person i needed

i meet guys

who have to much baggage

thats it

stop doing that

you cant change guys

men dont change

men grow

but they dont change

i dont know why i feel so strange

"art offers the possibility of love with strangers." - Walter Hopps

The function of art is to create love or hate.

personal identity is the most confounding puzzle of all. 

is this love?

do you think it takes a strong person to love a person like me?
maybe im just in love with love.
do i know my self-worth?
do i deserve less or more?
wandering mind.
but then i really want to live
tell me your thoughts on liberty
im not being untrue
everyone got a piece of someone they hide
she would be really happy if you touched there
lets pretend we don't exist
"i'm not like everybody else" he whispered
i confess all my sins
how long can i good thing last
tried to make me love him so
i cant help myself feel a little bit chained
how many times have i broken my own heart?
out of reach
sometimes i just a need a friend
maybe i just don't care
i'll kiss you again in between the bars
keep you apart from the rest
i was just out of your league


p.s.
i think im a little bit in love with you

i guess its true

it does not matter

if i take a photograph of you

im not keeping you forever with me 

its only a moment in time

that will only be bittersweet

i have a serious collection

these are old
i have at least 50.
friends and i

Wu Note Design

i've always liked the design on the covers of blue note records
iconic blue note jazz style
with a little of Wu-Tang
awesome

Logan Walters - Designer

a day in SF

this is scary right?

windows with weird things

LA vs SF ....   LA lost

margaritas at the game... really??? 

all with my best friend