too many truths

we hold so many truths.

what are we to believe

really.

are feelings just a chemical unbalance

how can i trust that.

what makes us move on.

im not angry anymore.

but can i really be in love  with someone 

and fall in love at the same time.

communication is important.

we always wonder if they still think about us

and my little 

signs

only remind me that 

it doesnt happen as often

why do we reach to our past.

i learn to leave it.

and then i turn back 

just because it feels safe to know

i did have feelings

im afraid when he touches me

so i kiss him on his shoulder.

hand.

arm.

push him away.

because i dont trust feelings.

i dont trust this chemistry.

science 

laws are broken

mystery spot.

he called

exactly a year has passed

i didnt answer

because there is nothing else

why would you try again

if you know there was absolutely nothing there

it was a mistake.

a mistake where i should have learned

that not everyone deserves someone 

he payed what he owed me

and that was it

but just to let him

know

since you 

i fell in love

we were just a thing

you know

im thinking maybe i was the bad person

you never really did anything bad

except not be the person i needed

i meet guys

who have to much baggage

thats it

stop doing that

you cant change guys

men dont change

men grow

but they dont change