Je veux regarder des films français

but

a few days ago i watched 

Boulevard Nights.

1979

i want to watch other chicano themed films.

i want to watch french films.

home

it was nice being in bakersfield for a few days

time with the girls - aww i love these girls.

oOo i picked up some art too!

this after the drinking and i still dont know why kathy is giving the mean face hahahaha!!

this was after we were in the pool. i dont know what im doing. 

melanie. 

my cousin and jacquie.  ooO my nephew

brother graduated. valedictorian. wow i think i tell everyone that.

im proud. 

aww most of the time i was with my nephew.

t-ball. showing me his dance moves. and watching cartoons. 

and saving a toy bunny in my mom's crazy garden.

ask me and ill share that story.

haha!

im home now.

and it feels good.

but it might be the fact the weather is a lot nicer.

my windows are open.

and there is a nice cool breeze.

oh yeah and my bed.

i need to organize my brain

?
para oms
(pick one up with his mix, coming soon)

follow your genius
para felicia

love signs
para vicky

yes
yes i make these little things

i feel silly

not sure if the right silly

silly 

as

in 

silly girl

he leaves now

i stay behind

nada makes sense

Sharon Forrester - Silly Wasn't I

even my cookie knows

words to live by

remember....
1.whomever comes they the right people
2. whatever happens is the only thing that could have.
3. whenever it starts is the right time
4. when it's over it's over

purple diary
hmmm not so sure

soon

i need a day like that

again

soon

sharing a bottle of wine 

with somebody

so...

some of these post are from my old journals.

no dates

included.

wow!

who knew a beer and spa time could relax me so.

too many truths

we hold so many truths.

what are we to believe

really.

are feelings just a chemical unbalance

how can i trust that.

what makes us move on.

im not angry anymore.

but can i really be in love  with someone 

and fall in love at the same time.

communication is important.

we always wonder if they still think about us

and my little 

signs

only remind me that 

it doesnt happen as often

why do we reach to our past.

i learn to leave it.

and then i turn back 

just because it feels safe to know

i did have feelings

im afraid when he touches me

so i kiss him on his shoulder.

hand.

arm.

push him away.

because i dont trust feelings.

i dont trust this chemistry.

science 

laws are broken

mystery spot.

he called

exactly a year has passed

i didnt answer

because there is nothing else

why would you try again

if you know there was absolutely nothing there

it was a mistake.

a mistake where i should have learned

that not everyone deserves someone 

he payed what he owed me

and that was it

but just to let him

know

since you 

i fell in love

we were just a thing

you know

im thinking maybe i was the bad person

you never really did anything bad

except not be the person i needed

i meet guys

who have to much baggage

thats it

stop doing that

you cant change guys

men dont change

men grow

but they dont change

i dont know why i feel so strange

"art offers the possibility of love with strangers." - Walter Hopps

The function of art is to create love or hate.

personal identity is the most confounding puzzle of all. 

is this love?

do you think it takes a strong person to love a person like me?
maybe im just in love with love.
do i know my self-worth?
do i deserve less or more?
wandering mind.
but then i really want to live
tell me your thoughts on liberty
im not being untrue
everyone got a piece of someone they hide
she would be really happy if you touched there
lets pretend we don't exist
"i'm not like everybody else" he whispered
i confess all my sins
how long can i good thing last
tried to make me love him so
i cant help myself feel a little bit chained
how many times have i broken my own heart?
out of reach
sometimes i just a need a friend
maybe i just don't care
i'll kiss you again in between the bars
keep you apart from the rest
i was just out of your league


p.s.
i think im a little bit in love with you

i guess its true

it does not matter

if i take a photograph of you

im not keeping you forever with me 

its only a moment in time

that will only be bittersweet

i have a serious collection

these are old
i have at least 50.
friends and i

Wu Note Design

i've always liked the design on the covers of blue note records
iconic blue note jazz style
with a little of Wu-Tang
awesome

Logan Walters - Designer

a day in SF

this is scary right?

windows with weird things

LA vs SF ....   LA lost

margaritas at the game... really??? 

all with my best friend